40!

The time has come or should I say the time has gone!!!!

I am officially 40 years old, it happened just a week or so ago! Surprisingly it came and went with out incident, no crazy surprises embarrassing moments or anything else of the kind! It was just a splendid weekend with my family filled with our usual mom's birthday adventures.

As I lay in bed on Sunday night reminiscing about the long weekend and how wonderful it had been, I suddenly became acutely aware of just how many years I had been on this lovely Earth and how quickly the time had passed. Although I hope to have lots ahead of me , I've suddenly realized how much was behind me! To say the least I ached for a life I haven't finished living, I want to slow the clock and soak in as much of the time I have left as I can. It may sound silly but I seriously felt dread.

You know that story of the painting with the dark spots that when you are in a dark spot you can't see the whole picture? Well I felt as though I stepped back and it was half painted and I was wondering how so much was already done!

So that's where I am pondering where 40 years have gone and where the next 40 will bring me.